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Maybe that is why I was a little nicer to Whythe at the party than I need to have been, because I wanted to forget something it was not well to remember if I was out to enjoy myself. After I had danced with half a dozen boys and spoken to everybody on the place, we went out on the lawn, Whythe and I, and sat on a rustic seat under a great maple-tree to cool off and rest awhile; and though everybody could see us and several couples were under several other trees (a number of cases being on hand and apt to culminate in August), Miss Bettie Simcoe had remarks to make, of course. She made them the next day at breakfast.
I wish I could buy a beau for Miss Bettie and make a present of him to her, but, being a member of the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals, I couldn’t very well do it. I never yet have seen a man I would be that hard on. But it would be the only way she could be made to see some things, and maybe it might make her feel young again. Jess says there’s nothing so kittenish as a spinster who’s caught an unexpected beau. He is the most rejuvenating thing on earth to a woman who wants one. All don’t want them. There are a great many more sensible women in this world than people realize, but in certain small places matrimony is still the chief pursuit in which women can engage without being thought unwomanly. Miss Bettie doesn’t pursue, and men are good dodgers in this part of the world, but if one of them would say a few things to her of the sort that Whythe knows how to say so well, her sniffing and snorting and seeing might grow less.
I don’t like her, but I feel sorry for her, for n.o.body really loves her, and it must be awful to have n.o.body to love you best of all on earth. I couldn’t live if n.o.body loved me. I could not. I might live without food and live without drink, and do without clothes and do without air–the right kinds of those things, I mean–but I couldn’t and I wouldn’t live without loving. As long as I am on this little planet I expect to love a lot of people and I hope they will love me in return. When Miss Bettie makes me so mad I have to go out of the room to keep from saying things I shouldn’t, and Miss Araminta simpers so when any one mentions Mr. Sparks’s name (he’s the new widower minister of the Presbyterian church, with no chance of escape), and Elizabeth Hamilton Carter makes me ashamed of my s.e.x, and I feel like I have swallowed concentrated extract of Human Peculiarities, I remember that not one of them has a father of any sort, much less my sort, or a precious mother and two dandy sisters and a good many nice relations and some bully friends–when I remember all that, remember how many I have to love me, I spit out the peculiarities and try not to mind them, try to see how funny they are. But sometimes the taste sticks right long. I don’t suppose I spit right. What I can’t understand is that if people want to be loved–and everybody does–why in the name of goodness don’t they do a little loving on their own account? You needn’t expect to get what you don’t give. I’m glad I was born with a taste for liking, though I don’t like every one, by a jugful. When I come across a righteous hypocrite I get out of the way, if it isn’t convenient to make the hypocrite get out of mine. There are some people I could never congeal with and I am never even going to try.
CHAPTER XIX
I wonder what made me waste time thinking about Miss Bettie Simcoe and human peculiarities when I started to say something about sitting under the trees with Whythe at the MacLean party, but, born a rambler, I will ramble unto death, and there’s no use wasting time lamenting natural deficiencies. Whythe, of course, couldn’t very conveniently make personal remarks, as people were pa.s.sing pretty close, though he did say I looked like a dream, which I did not, being too brown for a dream; but I did look real nice. I fished out one of the party dresses Mother made Clarissa put in my trunk, which I haven’t worn since I have been here, and I suppose it suited my brownness, as it was creamy and stuck out in the silly way skirts stick now, and it was new-fashioned enough to make everybody look at it and nudge a little. Whythe thought it was lovely, and told me so sixteen times, which was tiresome, and then I saw he was watching Elizabeth, who was on the porch with her new beau and did not know really whether my dress was blue or pink. The only thing he was thinking of was that not far from him was a superseder in possession of something which was once his. Whythe doesn’t like to be superseded in anything affecting his personal estimate of himself.
The Lord certainly let loose a lot of contradictions when he started the human race. When I saw the way Whythe was watching Elizabeth, and remembered how she had looked at him when he pa.s.sed her a few minutes before, I knew two specimens of a common variety were before me, and I made up a parable as I watched them watch each other. The two specimens had been in love and been engaged. They had a fuss. The engagement was broken. She was mad, and he was mad, and each thought the other would make the first advance to own up and make up; but before it could be done a young person appeared and distracted temporarily the attention of the man, and the girl went away to see what she could do. The man repaired the damage done unto him by saying pretty things to the new person, which was good for his pride and kept him in practice, and all was going well when the first maiden returned with a new possession.
The new possession was a son of great wealth, but the Faithless One was made to understand, without words, that his Cruelty was driving the Maid to Marriage with another, and his Vanity was appeased, and in his heart he rejoiced and said unto himself: “It is even as I thought, and that piece of punk she has brought back is bitter unto her, and in comparison to me he is nothingness indeed. And I would arise and punch his head if it were not for the New Person who may love me very much.”
And the young man was sorrowful when he thought on these things and yet glad also, for the heart of man is receptive to the love of all kinds of women, and it is pleasing unto him to believe he is pleasing unto them.
And seeing that which had come to pa.s.s, the New Young Person made up her mind that the Young Man and the Young Maid who had once loved must love again, and in her heart she said it is a vain thing to believe in the words of a man. They cometh out as cometh breath, then pa.s.s away and are remembered by him no more. And she took counsel with herself as to how she might bring to pa.s.s that which the simple souls knew not how to bring, and, lo! as she thought it came unto her. That’s a true parable!
What came was the thought of a picnic. Whythe and Elizabeth must accidentally have a chance to come across each other and have it out, and the best way they could do it would be outdoors, where it is convenient to wander off and get away from nudgers and commenters; and being nothing but impulse, I turned to Whythe, who was still unconsciously watching Elizabeth, and asked him if he would help me with something I was anxious to do. He said of course, and wanted to know what it was. When I told him I would tell him the next day he asked me to drive with him in the morning, and didn’t like it because I declined. That is, he didn’t like my reason, which was that, as he had been out of his office for some time, his business must need attending to, and I didn’t think it ought to be left any longer. He seemed to think that a very unnecessary remark, and I realized he liked Elizabeth’s kind better. She would never have dreamed of telling him his business needed attention. Elizabeth is the Admired and Honored type of Womanhood which does not think it is ladylike to have knowledge of business matters.
Seeing the look on his face, I said to myself: “Kitty Canary, it is all over. A pin has been stuck in your balloon and the air is out.” And I got up and went in and danced with every man dancer in the room, and hardly knew who they were, the breaks were so often. I had a good time, but also I had a right sinky feeling, for it’s pretty wabbly to realize that nothing human is to be depended on very long, and that a girl may be engaged one day to a man and not speaking to him the next.
Not that I had ever been engaged. I hadn’t, not caring for what goes with engagements, but I might have been if I hadn’t remembered about the different things I have fallen in and been fished out of when there was some one by to haul me out. n.o.body being by, I had to take care of myself, and I thought it best to go only so far and no farther.
On the way home Whythe tried to say some things pretty low about how he had missed me while away, but Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were in the back seat of the car (it was Mr. Lips…o…b..s Ford, and borrowed, of course), and he had to be so careful it was a strain, and as I didn’t answer he stopped after a while. It takes two to do more things than make a bargain, and to battledore love without having it shuttlec.o.c.ked back isn’t much fun. He wanted to know what was the matter when I got out, and I told him it was sleep. He didn’t seem to like that, either.
It’s hard to please men.
CHAPTER XX
I didn’t see Whythe for the next few days, as I thought it best not to, and, besides, I had bushels of letters to write and a very special one to Father, and I had no time for him. The thing I had to write Father about was money. I wanted five hundred dollars, and the only way I knew how to get it was to ask him to give it to me; so I asked. I always did believe that the person who gives the money ought to be told what is to be done with it, and that is why I wrote Father as I did; and, besides, he likes to hear little bits of news about the Twickenham-Towners, and asking for the money gave me a chance to tell him.
He had told me, when he was here, that if there was any way in which I could be of service in the right way to let him know and he would put up the money part, if I would manage the other part, and it would be a little secret between us and n.o.body else need know anything about it.
When, last week, I heard Mrs. Richard Stafford say she would rather go to a hospital for a month than do anything on earth, I thought my chance had come. At the hospital, she said, a person had the right to be waited on and do nothing, and not think about food or servants, and not feel they were bothering other people by being sick; and while she wasn’t sick exactly, a hospital would seem like heaven if she could be in one for a little while. She had laughed when she said it, and didn’t dream of its being taken in earnest, but I took it in earnest, for the tiredness in her face makes me ache every time I see her, and right up in my mind popped the little secret Father and I and Miss Polk could have. What I wrote was this:
_Father dear, will you please send me five hundred dollars, and if you can do it by return mail I will be very much obliged. The person I want part of it for is so tired that she might not be able to ever get rested unless she has a chance pretty quick to lie down and do nothing for a month, anyhow, and that is why I am in a hurry. Tiredness is a very wearing disease and if it runs on too long it runs a person into a state that is almost impossible to get out of, and the whole family has to pay up for letting it go on. Home gets h.e.l.l-y when there’s too much tiredness in it. What I want the money for is this: Mrs. Stafford is worn out. You know her. She was Miss Mary Shirley, and married a perfectly useless man when she was eighteen, and she is now the mother of seven children, and has a mother-in-law living with her, and also Miss Lou Barbee, who won’t go away. And, of course, the man whom she can’t turn out. He isn’t bad. Just lazy, with nothing to him, but she loves him and I will skip over that part. She needs a rest and ought to have it. It’s nothing but scrimp and sc.r.a.pe and strive to keep up appearances day in and day out, year in and year out, until she is all to pieces and the children don’t realize what is the matter. And, of course, the Male Person doesn’t, for he says that Woman’s Place is in the Home. When he told me that yesterday (his heels were on the railing of his porch, where he generally keeps them, and his pipe in his mouth) I thought to myself that if he were mine he would have to get out of my home or prove he had a better right to share it with me than he had ever proved to his wife. But I won’t get on that, either.
I’ll go back to Mrs. Stafford._
_Half the time she doesn’t have a servant, and all the time she has a mother-in-law, who is pie crust, and Miss Lou Barbee, who’s a bagpipe, and with the doors locked and windows shut so no one can see, she has worked herself to death. What I want done is to have an invitation sent her from an old friend to be the guest of the hospital here for a month, and you will be the friend and she will never know it. Miss Polk, the superintendent of the hospital, will manage things. I’ve talked it over with her, and she understands. Miss Polk is a perfectly grand person. For Simon-pure sense there isn’t her equal on earth.
She and I have decided on what we would do if we had money. We’d have a Fund for Tired Mothers and Fathers. It would be used to give them a Rest before Death._
_I hope you won’t mind sending the money. I don’t think you will, for everybody says business is so prosperous it’s actually unrighteous, and it’s in the Bible that you ought to put your treasures where you can find them again, or something like that. If you can’t send it I know there will be a good reason for your not sending it, but I would like to have it by Monday if possible, so Mrs. Stafford can go to the Hospital the next day. Later, four other people can have their turn.
It is to be used not for illness, but for Tiredness; for broken-downers and worn-outers who need being waited on and fed up and allowed to keep still. Miss Polk and I are going to decide on who needs a rest the most before I go away, and I send you for it, Father dear, an armful of squeezes and the biggest bunch of kisses the mail-man can take._
That was all I told him about the Rest money, but I said a little something about the picnic I thought I ought to give. Everybody in town has given something, and, having accepted, I have to return, and the picnic will be the best thing for Whythe and Elizabeth. I didn’t mention the ex-lovers to Father, of course. Even to a father one doesn’t have to tell everything in life.
CHAPTER XXI
I haven’t seen Whythe alone but once since the night of the MacLean party, and then I stopped any tendencies that showed signs of being personal, and talked most of the time about the picnic which we can’t have until late in the month. Every day is engaged up to the twenty-fourth. Whythe tried to talk of Mr. Algernon Grice Baker, but I cut that out also. Sarcasm doesn’t suit him, and some day he might be sorry. The Superseder has gone, however, and every day Elizabeth pa.s.ses Whythe’s office, and every day Whythe happens to be at his window at the time of pa.s.sing. They speak, but so far that is all. I am sorry the picnic has to wait so long. They are two silly children.
Their fingers aren’t in their mouths, but their heads are on the side when they see each other, and the thing’s getting on my nerves. Almost any kind of sin is easier to stand than some sorts of silliness.
I wonder why I stay awake so much at night! It’s very unusual, and I try my best to go to sleep, but I can’t sleep. Always I am thinking of Mr. William Spencer Sloane and the things I would say to him if he were in hearing distance. Not one line have I had from him for more than two weeks. Not a card or a little present, which he usually sends from every place he goes to, or any sign to show he is living. I got so mad when I realized he hadn’t noticed me for fourteen days that I couldn’t keep in things which had to come out, and, seeing Miss Susanna was sleeping the sleep of worn-outness, I got up the other night and lighted a candle behind the bed, and on the floor I wrote a letter that maybe wasn’t altogether as accurate as it might have been. I wouldn’t have sent it the next day if it hadn’t been for a letter I got from Jess, but after I read hers I sent mine flying.
I haven’t cooled down yet from reading Jess’s letter. I am not going to cool down until I see the cause of it face to face, and if Billy thinks it makes the least difference to me how he amuses himself or with whom he spends his time sightseeing he thinks Wrong! I was going to tear up the letter I had written him in the middle of the night for the relief of indignations and because in the middle of the night things seem so much bigger and harder and stranger than in the daylight; but after I read the letter from Jess I added a postscript to mine and almost ran down to the post-office to mail it, for fear if I didn’t do it quick I mightn’t do it at all. Ever since I sent it off I have been perfectly horrid, and I can hardly stand myself. I have put off trying to make Whythe and Elizabeth see how stupid they are, and as Elizabeth hasn’t been very nice to me I haven’t felt it to be my duty to show her what a goose she is. Neither have I told Whythe that almost any girl who adored him would do for his wife. As I don’t adore I wouldn’t do, and I think he is beginning to take it in. A dozen times of late he has told me he doesn’t understand me. He does not.
And never will.
The thing in Jess’s letter which made me hot was this: “What is the matter with you and Billy? Pat says (Pat is Patricia, Billy’s sister) that you’ve been pretty horrid about writing him, and he’s been blue-black at not getting letters from you; but at present he is having a good time with a very jolly girl from the West who is at their hotel.
Chirp him something cheerful, Canary Bird. If I were younger or Billy older you shouldn’t have him. I’d have him myself. I’m not going to stand for bad treatment of him, and if those Southern boys who make love to every pretty girl they see, and make it better than any boys on earth, have made you forget an old friend, I’m coming down and take you back home. Behave yourself, Kitty Canary, and write Billy the sort of letter we scream over up here.” And then she went on with other things.
It is ridiculous in Pat to say I haven’t written Billy! I have. Three long letters and three cards, and certainly he can’t expect more than that, as he hasn’t been gone but two months and five days; and, besides, friends ought to have such confidence in each other that they don’t need letters to prove their friendship. Not a word have I had from him in more than two weeks, and if Jess thinks I am going to write him a chirp letter (which he won’t have time to read if he is going around so much with a Western girl and having so much fun) she, too, thinks Wrong. That Westerner explains why I haven’t heard from him for so long. It is outrageous in Billy to behave as he has been behaving.
All men are alike. Every one of them. It was ignorance in me to imagine Billy was different. He isn’t. The more I thought of how mistaken I had been in him the madder I got, and I just wrote a postscript to my letter and flew to the post-office with it. It seemed providential that my letter was ready to send. I hope he will read it while on one of his joyous excursions with the Western Woman, who is doubtless twenty-five, maybe thirty, and just making use of Billy, who hasn’t sense enough to see it. I nearly cried my eyes out last night, before Miss Susanna came up to bed, because it was necessary to send him such a letter. Still, Billy has to learn things in life and he might as well learn them early. What I wrote was this:
_Dear Billy,–I have been having such a perfectly grand time lately that it has been impossible to squeeze out a sc.r.a.p in which to write you, and yet I have wanted to do so, for I am sure you will be glad to know how fearfully happy I am and what is causing the happiness. I am in love. It is the most wonderful thing I have ever been in, and thrillingly interesting. I suppose you have been in it many times, but not my way, or you would have mentioned it, just as I am doing to you, as we are such old friends, and friends have the right to know of important happenings. I hope you will like each other when you meet, for, though you are very unlike, you are both made of male material, and I have often noticed that men have many peculiarities in common.
One of them is out of sight out of love, and a great readiness to be admired and entertained. He is a lawyer and couldn’t be better born, though he might be better educated; still, one mustn’t expect all things in one man, and his eyes are so wonderful, and he uses such poetic prose, that the lack of money and a few other lacks shouldn’t count. He lives in a beautiful old house which has proud traditions and no bathrooms, and his family is one of the oldest and most disagreeable in America; still, we would not have to live with them if we were married. Nothing on earth could make me sleep under the same roof with his sisters, who are so churchy that the minister himself is subject under them. And neither would it be safe for me to be too closely a.s.sociated with his mother. However, things of that sort are in the distance, which may be far or may not, and I am not thinking of immediate marriage, but just how magnificent it is to have somebody in love with you who knows how to say so in the most delicious way, and with a voice that, when the moon is out, is truly heavenly. I am telling you about it because I thought you might be interested and would like to know of my happiness; but, of course, I don’t want you to tell any one else, as it is still a secret and all so indefinite that it wouldn’t do to speak of it to any one but you. I am scribbling this in the middle of the night, because I can’t sleep for thinking of some one, and because there is no time in the day in which to write. I hope you are having a great time. Give my love to the family and write me of your gladness at knowing of mine._
_As ever, Kitty._
Now what do you suppose made me write such slush as that? And why is a female person born with such horridness in her that she can say things that are not so with a smile in public and cry her eyes out when alone?
That’s what I have been doing lately, though I can’t let tears have much time, for I am not by nature a crier, and they would disturb Miss Susanna at night. In my secret heart I just wrote that letter to Billy because I was indignant with him for not writing to me for more than two weeks, and I didn’t intend to let him think I was sitting on a tombstone waving a willow branch in one hand and wiping tears away with the other. And, besides, I have been in love. Summer love. And it has been exciting. No one could expect me to go through life and not have but one experience in love making and hearing, and because a girl enjoys the different manners of expression it doesn’t mean she is not particular about the story not being ill.u.s.trated. I don’t ill.u.s.trate or allow ill.u.s.trations, which, of course, lessens some of the thrill, but I promised Jess I would always draw the line at the right time, and I have. I have not been engaged for half a minute, and I wouldn’t have added the postscript if it hadn’t been for her letter and what she told me about that girl from some Western town who is no more his sort than I am her brother’s. Billy is perfectly blind about some things, and has no discrimination where it is most needed. Anyhow, I added the postscript:
_P.S.–By the time you get this I may be engaged. Thank you for what you would say if here._
_K. C._
CHAPTER XXII
It was after I sent the letter that I got so restless I couldn’t sit still, and as there was nothing I enjoyed doing I spent a good deal of my tune at the hospital with Miss Polk, who is a very splendid person, and every day I went in to see Mrs. Stafford. She is having the grandest rest, with rubs and good eats and nothing to do but be waited on and cared for, that a tired person ever had, and I am the only one who is allowed to see her, which is beyond the understanding of Twickenham Town. I’m cheerful is the reason I’m allowed to see her, the town is told, and that’s enough for it to know.
It certainly is queer how some things happen in the nick of time.
Father sent me the money, but told me to try to be as practical as possible, knowing I am given to doing impractical things; and I took it to Miss Polk, and n.o.body but she and I know where it came from. And then she invited Mrs. Stafford to be a guest of the hospital for a month. I happened to be at the house when the note came. I thought it best to be there accidentally, in case there should be argument and talk, and the Man of the House should still think Woman’s Place was in the Home, and sure enough there was. Mrs. Stafford read the note, and her face got as white as death, and after a minute she said it would be heaven to go, but of course she couldn’t. And the n.o.ble creature who is her husband said it was very presumptuous in whoever had invited her to be the guest of the hospital, and that he wasn’t in the habit of having his wife visit such places on the invitation of unknown interferers, and of course she couldn’t go. And just as he said that Mrs. Stafford keeled over in a dead faint right at his feet, as if something had given out at the thought of rest. I knew that was my chance, and I took it.
“Stop that automobile!” I waved to a man who was coming down the street, and as he stopped I knelt and did the things Billy had made me learn how to do the first year we went to camp. And seeing the poor, tired soul had just fainted, and would come to in a minute, I spoke quick to the man looking down at her, scared to death, as were the children, who began to cry, and told him he wouldn’t have a wife much longer to be interfered with if he didn’t come down from that horse he thought he was riding and have some common sense.
“Don’t you see she is worn out,” I said, “and got nothing to go on with? Everything has given out, and the next time she drops over in this way she may never get up again.” I was putting some water on her face as I spoke, and, seeing her eyes begin to open a little, I called to Mr. Everett, who had gotten out of his car and was on the porch, to help Mr. Stafford put his wife in and take her to the hospital, and the frightened husband for once did as he was told. I hopped in with her and held her up and told Mr. Everett to drive like old Scratch, and he drove. It was all over so quickly n.o.body knew what had happened.